thought i should write abit here since i havent done so in a long time
im writing here for the first time in my new home. life is still the same.
im still the big procrastinator. home is still as messy as day one.
yeah messed up, i know ;)
its a busy day tomorrow. im gonna meet my dad whom i havent spoke to since i had a big quarrel last aug. and my brother, zen, whos in town from vancouver.
it was a sudden meet up, typical of my dad. always expecting people to be at his whim of command, something i've inherited, something im trying to suppress.
there is something i am trying to adjust in the last few hours. because im am going only because i havent seen zen in a very very long time. not because i want to reconcile with the old man.
my ego does not change, it grows. how unfortunate is that.
i wont console myself for the fortunate fact that i can stay true to how i feel.
it is rightful.
im just gonna be staying for a while because i have a final vocal lesson before the exam next month. which i have skipped keyboards to attent =\
schedule has suddenly become tight. good
then it is grading for my performing team. speaking of which, it is my 1st comeback after a loooong while. im keeping the stage fright under control pretty well. but what counts is after i strum the first chord. focus man! lol
after that will be dinner with the gang then movie.
makes me wonder, are we really this busy?
see ya soon ;P
